This blog was formerly dedicated in 2009 to my Dad who died of Alzheimer's in 2013. It's been three years now...and I find myself missing blogging...so I am re-inventing my blog... because, after all, life is about moving through, and going forward...

Saturday, March 6, 2010

THIS IS THE PITS!!!

I called this morning to speak to my Dad,
He was in Bible Study.
They told me to call back in an hour and a half.
I called back after lunch,
And now he is asleep...
I was told to call back between 1:30pm and 2:30pm

I will try,
but then they will be passing out meds
and too busy to take the phone to him.
Or, he will still be asleep.
The last time I called and woke him up,
he fell asleep on me mid conversation...

THIS IS THE PITTS!
This is so frustrating...
I want to talk with my Dad...
We don't know from one day to the next,
how long we will have him.

I miss you Dad.
I love you Dad.
I am thinking of you Dad.
I wish I could hold your hand...
I wish I could feel your arms around me, in one of your hugs...
I don't want you to leave...
but I don't want you to stay,
to be swallowed whole by this insidious, evil, disease of Alzheimer's...

6 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

My Mom's in a nursing home too. Between meals, exercise class and her regular naps, there are really only 2 windows of opportunity to phone her -- 1:00-1:30 pm and 6:00-7:00 pm. It just means I have to rearrange my schedule a bit to make my daily phone calls during those times. That's just how it is!

Betty said...

I´m so sorry! I completely understand though. The people we long for are already gone. Will be praying.

Cindi said...

thinking of you.. i can imagine how hard this is for you and your family!! .. sure wish you were closer to where he is , so you could spend the time that you want with him..sending you strenght... this alzhiemers thing is horrible.. i hate what it does to the folks we love...

119 said...

nice to know you ~........................................

Aspen said...

Just wanted to stop by and leave a quite hello and let you know I feel for you and know what you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

gayle said...

This must be so hard on you!! Praying that you will talk to your dad soon!!